Soccer Girl..........

Brielle is down to one last game in AYSO soccer! On Saturday she got her TROPHY!.....This has made her life! It is all she has talked about since receiving it. She has been looking forward to this trophy all season long.
It is a pretty nice trophy! The ones we used to get as kids had a plastic gold look. Not cute!

It's a.....................

Cannot miss those boy parts!!!...

Notice the hand coming down to the parts :)

Cute Profile!...

Sucking his thumb!!!

Again with the thumb!!...

Arms...!!!

Profile again...with hand nearing mouth!!!...

Ahhh...cute big FEET.....

Profile and leg...

Weird 3D ultrasound...Spiderman BABY..:)

Scary...Looks like his is ready to fight! :) Head looks huge!...Must be my boy!!..:)

Baby Gender..........:)

The voting was not working so lets try that again...PLZ vote :)

We hope to find out next week what we are having!!!!! We are soooo excited....The general consensus is a GIRL....so we shall see...Tell us what u think and vote above!!!....:)

My Girl..................

I also wanted to share how much I LOVE this girl of mine.......

She is soooo mischievous.......

She does not obey.......

She has a very, VERY difficult time listening.....

She is hyperactive!!.......

Does not like going to church....

She already has a "cell" phone..........

She thinks she is in CHARGE.......

She cannot keep any clothes CLEAN...(look at pic)

She loves to torment.........

She has done good as of late but has been known to sneak

into our bed in the middle of the night.............

Even with all of those little traits that I'm sure all come from me....We love this girl to death. She is always entertaining us. Between her guitar playing and singing to her pretend adventures!! She is a fabulous sister and very tender hearted. She loves her friends and wants to play with them everyday. She is very intelligent and does well in preschool. She likes her room clean and her hair just right. She is starting to have an opinion with her clothes and what to wear. She wants to be on American Idol someday. She is an excellent soccer player (when she wants to be ;). Again, we accept this girl with her faults because she is ours!..We love her and someday she will be married with her own family and if she wants to snuggle with me in my bed...Well then SO. BE. IT.

My BOY.............

Just in case anyone was wondering how much I LOVE this boy I thought I would let you know.......

He does not sleep in his own bed yet......

He is not potty trained......

He does not go to primary without a fight.....

He does not clean up his toys.......

He does NOT like to eat any meat......

He is extremely naughty.......

He loves to tease and irritate...............

He likes to sucker punch you.....

He will not even try a new food if it is at all "different" looking......

He cannot pronounce his "k".......

But with a face like that do I care about any of these things?? NOPE. He can sleep in my bed until he is 30. I do not care if he ever eats anything other than chicken nuggets. I would like him to potty train but really not pushing him at all. I will continue to pick up after him because well, I still clean up after his Father so why should I make him clean ;). I know he is naughty and mischievous and I recognize this as bad behavior but I do not really care!..He is so cute that I find it very difficult to discipline him!.. I decided that he is my baby and though I will have a new one in October my kids will only be kids once.!!! They will only want to sleep in my bed for so long then it will be a big lonely bed :(. At the rate time is going by they will be married and out of the house next week so I'm going to enjoy them. So call me a bad Mom...I don't really care ;)

Bowling.............

Family Bowling..............

My kids absolutely love bowling!!... We can use it to bribe them and they will do just about anything ;)

Look at the excitement on her face!

Helping her brother get his shoes on!...How sweet!...

Both the kids ready to play!...

My handsome boy!...I love him!

Beauty!...
Proud of himself!..

Melts my heart!...

Well................

Now that everyone knows why I have been in a funk lately...pregnancy..blah!!!... I feel like I can start blogging again. Yea!!

I took these pictures back in January with every intention of posting them in January but well you know....

This is just a word of advice: DO NOT WAIT TO LONG TO TAKE DOWN YOUR REAL CHRISTMAS TREE....

Certainly still looks okay at the end of January......

But this is what will be left behind..............

And this..................

And this.............

And this is what Dawson looked like while we "took away" Christmas as he called it.....:(

Cried into a pillow.........

Then he could not even bare to watch.....my poor sensitive boy:( It was so cute though as he told us not to "take away Kissmas!"

Now that everyone...............

Knows why I have been out of the blogging world lately now I can continue blogging. :) YEA..... I know, I know I have been greatly missed.

Sooooooooooooooo.................What is new with us? It seems this pregnancy has been the hardest in terms of morning sickness than my other two pregnancies combined. Though it is not necessarily morning sickness but ALL DAY SICKNESS...and worse in the middle of the night. I can be seen running to the toilet at 1,2,3,4 am loosing whatever I ate for dinner. I have now decided to eat meals that I do not care to loose later.

I have also decided this may not be a baby after all but some kind of alien life-form that likes to see me suffer ;). I am also aware that I am a big WIMP....I hate throwing up. Which means at those times in the middle of the night I can also be found crying. What a baby!.. I know! I am hoping in a couple weeks when I hit that magical 2nd Trimester I will get some relief and energy back!...

I think my biggest struggle with having another baby is anxiety. Once you have experienced a traumatic event it is very, very hard to find the "bright side" in things. I have struggled a lot with my emotions since July 08 and it has been hard to move on, if you will. Once you have become a part of that world it seems all you read about our see is more traumatic events. I have come to the conclusion that life is NOT easy. Horrible things happen to wonderful families. No one is exempt. The time will come for all, I believe, to have your soul shaken down to its core. Just better pray your ready.

This is what brings me to my fear. We, for some reason unknown to us, were granted the most wonderful miracle!.. A healthy boy, who as of now has absolutely no problems!!!! We got our miracle already so why tempt fate? I have two healthy children now, why add more to the odds? If something else happens we have used up our "Miracles" we will have no options. I have struggled a lot with the idea of more children. I have always wanted more but after that experience it has been very difficult.

After all, it takes one microscopic cell to grow wrong and boom you have a brain tumor, or cancer. A healthy child is actually the MIRACLE.

My only comfort is that I handled our ordeal soooo poorly that I obviously could not be tested much further, right? RIGHT? That was all I could ever handle, that makes me in the clear of any other trials!.. Wait, no it does not, well great!!!! ;)

I have always been neurotic and OCD. Some things make me more "nervous" than other things. Like dirty hands!.. My kids love to get dirty hands then touch their faces/mouths. (go figure right?) AHHHHHHH.

I was never worried with my first two pregnancies about miscarriage or any other problems. Things would just be perfect and nothing could go wrong so it was easy to just be happy all the time. Now that I have been introduced to the NON-perfect world I realize a whole heck of a lot can go WRONG. Which makes my anxiety, OCD, worrying very heightened.

This brings me to my first OB appointment. In California you get an ultrasound very early to confirm your pregnancy. Well apparently my doctor here in Utah does not usually do one. Now notice that I said USUALLY. Though when you get a crazy, neurotic, possibly insane mother in your office you have to do an ultrasound just to assure her that there is in fact a baby and not just an empty sac growing! ;) Luckily, I have a fabulous Doctor whom I love and she "understands" me! We did agree that we would like to keep this baby in longer than Dawson was and try to avoid the NICU if at all possible ;) Sounds like a great plan to me!!!

Oh and you better believe I am going to be a fool looking at the brain development in the ultrasounds of this baby! :)))))))))))))

By the way David says its a girl because the pregnancy seems to be more like Brielle's than Dawson's. I was convinced it was a boy at first but now that I have been so sick I am definitely sticking with my first theory.....Alien Life-FORM.

Big News.....................